Job interview at 2 this afternoon! I'm nervous.
For one, it's tricky to get there. I practiced driving the route yesterday, but that was with my husband in the car helping give directions. I think I can find it again on my own, I wrote the streets down and paid close attention when we were practicing.
For two, when I applied for the job I was of course jobless, but since then my husband's work has shown an interest in hiring me and I'd much rather work there. It's closer, the boss is really nice, and I wouldn't have to work with people. So now there's very little chance that I would take the job I'm applying for today even if they offered it, because it's highly likely I'll be hired somewhere else that I'd like better. But I can't cancel the interview now, it would be too unprofessional! So I'm nervous that I'm going to go into the interview and make a fool of myself and all for nothing. And what if they do want to hire me and they find out I've already got something else lined up? Won't they be mad at me for wasting their time? ;;
The interview today is for a secretary position. Not really my cup of tea, I dislike dealing with the general public and I have nearly zero experience in office work. But if I was jobless I'd do it!
And shoes! I don't have any good interviewing shoes! I don't have any dress shoes at all, really. I hate them, so I never buy them. Every time I've needed a pair has been in the summer, so I've found a pair of nice sandals, and then when I don't wear the sandals again for a year I send them to Goodwill or give them to my mom (our feet are the same size ^^) and then of course two weeks after I get rid of my horribly uncomfortable dress sandals I have to have fancy shoes again so I have to go get another pair of horribly uncomfortable dress sandals.
But winter! D: How am I supposed to wear dress shoes in the winter? Who the heck designed heels and thought to their self "Self, this ridiculous shoe with the spindly little twig butt that serves no purpose except to hurt a woman's feet and be mean to her back, that is difficult to walk in and makes everyone walk like flamingos, is PERFECT for prancing around in the snow and ice in!" ._. Really.
And yet everyone expects me to own a pair of heels.
And so today for my nervous interview I am wearing black dress pants, a cream-colored sweater (my only dress shirt is black and I can't wear all black, I'll look like a funeral. D: And if I wear different pants, it would either be jeans or a skirt. None of my skirts are wintery and jeans don't go to interviews! Gah!) and... black boots. Hopefully my pants will hide most of the boots. ;;
Gulp. Breathe in, breathe out.