Valefor.Slipispsycho said:
»Long shot but I'm asking anyways... This ***has been bugging me all day.
Have you ever had a dream answer everything... I mean all those questions you ask yourself all the time. "Why do I keep going out with this person when deep down I know they are going to cheat for the 3rd, 5th or 6th time" as one relevant example, except it's ALL exposed to you and you understand and recognize the one single factor you have to correct in your life and then everything else is just a downhill coast?
It's a really numbed down version of what I went though but enough that if someone has they will know exactly what I:'m talking about. This event wasn't really alcohol or dug induced or anything.. It's all so clear but trying to grab the words to describe what i felt/saw/went through is hard and they just kinda fade.
I'm still, and have been all day, trying to recall what happened in my dream. I know it was important and I know i can improve my life if I can just remember, call it faith if you'd like.
I know exactly what that feels like.
For one solid moment, you are in sync with yourself. The fibers of your being tighten and you realize "Yes, yes; this is who I am. This is why I am, why I do what it is I do. This is what it is that I am, and why."