i have social anxiety ._.
i don't like to be around people, cause i feel like they judge me negatively always. i'm also paranoid about not knowing what people are thinking so it can cause my mind to create extremely skewed and irrational fears about what they're thinking and how they feel about me which can cause me to have anxiety attacks. it's a terrible feeling, when those irrational thoughts happen... i usually just curl up in a ball, but recently i made a friend who i can feel comfortable talking to about anything and not feel like i'm being judged. that's been really helpful so far, i haven't had an anxiety attack in a month thanks to talking to him.
though ironically because i've gotten so close to him, and because i tell him so much and i mostly talk to him through IM, he was the cause of the last few i had :X