Random Thoughts.....What Are You Thinking?

I'm pissed now -.- I spent hours (3 or more) making a video compilation of me flying jets in BF3, and got it all how I wanted, and started to export, about 1/4 of the way through the program locked up, and for whatever reason nothing was saved (it autosaves, every 10 minutes or so, this is the one time I've forgotten to manually save) and everything was lost.

Bleh I hate that ***

When the cold heavy sky weighs like a lid
On spirits whom eternal boredom grips,
And the wide ring of the horizon's hid
In daytime darker than the night's eclipse:

When the world seems a dungeon, damp and small,
Where hope flies like a bat, in circles reeling,
Beating his timid wings against the wall
And dashing out his brains against the ceiling:

When trawling rains have made their steel-grey fibres
Look like the grilles of some tremendous jail,
And a whole nation of disgusting spiders
Over our brains their dusty cobwebs trail:

Suddenly bells are fiercely clanged about
And hurl a fearsome howl into the sky
Like spirits from their country hunted out
Who've nothing else to do but shriek and cry —

Then long processions without fifes or drums
Wind slowly through my soul. Hope, weeping, bows
To conquest. And atrocious Anguish comes
To plant his black flag on my drooping brows.

A very vividly painted portrait of despair, Seha. I enjoyed picking that apart.

Spleen, Charles Baudelaire.

¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Don't mind me. I'm like this every year in this day.

Check your calendar every morning to know how you are to feel?

I'm confused. Detective mode: on.

Detective mode: SUPER ON.



Minus the "YOU'RE A MORON" part.

Now that's just rude.

Sleepga?

boooored.

You should do something. :x

I'm so tempted to make a Madara mask for my Elvaan. :<

Doooooo it.

Tired of the *** by these guys that claim to be 'different' from others, that they want to 'help me' 'give their life for me', and other idiocy, when it's all just a mindgame to try and get inside of me or force love out of me, when it's not even there.
Oh thank you, you saved me! Now my life can go on in perfect harmony just because of all your good words! They're also so original, I swear I've never heard them! Now I suddenly love you and want to live happily ever after with you!
That's what you want to hear, right? Let's not forget a background music to make the movie scene even more dramatic.

Now go cry in a corner cursing what an evil *** is Seha. Hate me as much as you want. I told you so beforehand.



Rant. Got lost in my random thoughts, sorry. Or random yelling is maybe more appropriate.

That sucks some major *** Seha. :x
No reason to apologize. It's good to get stuff like that out of your head every once in a while. I've taken to writing random ***down in a journal the last month or so to keep myself sane.

I hope the small "ranting" at least helped ease some stress.

Edit: in bad taste, sorry :(

My heart hurts and I'm shaking. I dare to say I don't feel very well.

Read between the lines.

I know this is going to sound kinda awkward but I feel like I just kinda wanna give you a big ol' hug and hold you there for a bit until you calm down. :/ I just hate to think of people in that state and realizing I can't help in any real way.

I would hurt you physically if you did, it's not a good idea.

I don't understand.

/shrug I'd probably deserve. Anyway I'll leave you be so as to stop myself from making anything worst.