Meh, two things.
We have some so taboo issues in society that people have no outlet for them like pedophilia and suicide, though hardly equal. Some of us have been at the suicidal brink, and you are in this weird spot where you don't want to unload on friends, you don't want to say the s-word, but you also do. Frankly, right then, you really want someone to ask what's wrong.
I remember years ago, I was in a WoW FB group that was a lot like the conversations that go on here in P&R and Random Thoughts. Someone posted an article mocking this guy that had fallen in love with a dolphin and written a book about it. There were jokes everywhere but I really just could only feel bad for the guy. We are wired the way we are and it's just lucky that mine and your peculiarities are more socially acceptable than his.
None of this is to defend attraction to children, or even bestiality, but only to say that I feel bad for the people who are wired that way. I know I couldn't change my quirks, even if they were socially repulsive (repress? maybe--hopefully, change? probably not).