Cerberus.Liandaru said:
»I have ***I need to get off my chest. I don't do the whole blogging thing, so here's a spoiler.
My dad died 4 years ago tomorrow. Part of me is still relieved he's gone because he was a mentally abusive *** with a horrible Irish temper that he blamed on his upbringing. Yet I still miss him. Stupid, I know.
His best friend's wife is in the hospital. Tomorrow she'll have her leg amputated thanks to a botched knee replacement surgery. Her bones are full of infection and it's the only way to truly stop it from spreading. However, there's a probability they won't get all the infection and she'll go septic and die.
I work at a family business and today I got to listen to my boss get reamed by her mom and dad for god knows what. I feel really bad for her, but she's bipolar and I can't even give her any words of comfort because when I do, she screams at me for it, so I just sat there and avoided her all day.
Also found out my mom's had a heart attack she wasn't aware of at some point in the past few months. They want to do surgery now and I'm so afraid I'm going to lose her. It's just one damn thing after another and I'm *** tired of it.
You remind me of my wife sometimes.. If that actually fit her history, I wouldn't be surprised at all if you told me that she's the one that wrote it.
I dunno what to tell either of you.. It's hard to explain how I deal with it, but I just take a 'meh attitude' about it. I refuse to care about it.. That doesn't mean I don't worry, and it doesn't mean I don't get stressed at times, I just refuse to let it bother me, I just move on.. Confusing and conflicting I know. I've had some pretty shitty low points in my life as well..